Monthly Archives: July 2014

Apparently I really love Apple

I’ve not really spoken about this too much, but within the blind people realm there are two organizations that divide us. One is called National Federation of the Blind, and the other is American Council of the Blind. I really don’t like either, but if I had to choose I would side with ACB more than NFB. I bring this up, because recently making headlines on my twitter feed was that blind group wants more from Apple. Now I think I’ve raved about how much the IPhone has changed my life. I can do so much with it from identifying money, playing games, and reading audio books. The NFB wants to have Apple make any application accessible which is simply Ludacris. Angry Birds couldn’t become accessible and provide sighted and blind users with the same gameplay. Would I love for something like this to happen of course I would, but it just isn’t reality? Also I don’t see them targeting Microsoft or google. How about my touch screen washer maybe? Nope let’s just single out a company who brought accessibility to the mainstream.

The frustrating thing to me is that we lack so far behind in other areas in which a group of people could make a difference and get things done. They have a dictator who they call a president, but magically he never gets voted out. They’d have you to believe it was a democracy really? The organization has been pretty unfriendly to dog users along the way as well, because they claim were not as independent as the all mighty cane user. Somehow I’m not on the same level as them, because I rely on a dog to help me maneuver obstacles. Again I thought we lived in America and should be able to choose what I prefer.

Today though I was trying to view a menu from a restaurant that was in a pdf format. With my screen reader it couldn’t read the menu at all. Why doesn’t the NFB actually try and change things that matter would I rather play Angry Birds or read a menu to a steakhouse? I live this independent lifestyle and see a company who has gone above and beyond my expectations as a mainstream company, and yet they don’t feel it’s good enough for them. Meanwhile other things they encounter every day from other companies probably frustrates them like it does me, and yet no one speaks about it. I’m exhausted with these organizations just honestly stop speaking for the blind.

Things are going well with my girlfriend. We went and saw my first ever descriptive movie in a theater. It was pretty sweet. For those that don’t know they make movies with what’s called descriptive video where during non-dialog someone tells you visual elements. At the theater they give you a headset and a wireless receiver. We watched a pretty visual movie that I would have been way lost without the description. I really enjoy her company, and I’m enjoying the fact were both blind, because she gets things that a lot of people don’t really understand.

Robin and I celebrated 6 years together this week. It’s pretty amazing to me I’ve had her 6 years. I love her so much, and was meant for each other. Through every adventure, job, heartache, or anything else Robin’s been there and for that she is pretty special.

I’ve been meaning to write more, but with the prospect of me working a second job, and just life I’ve been pretty busy. I lost my condo which I mentioned earlier, but I found a house. I like the back yard for Robin, and I will have more freedom. I’ve debated back and forth and at the end of the day houses and condos both have ups and downs so if the house works out I’ll let you know if it doesn’t you’ll know too.

I let the condo go a homeshopping we will go

I got some bad news today the condo association rejected my mortgage they wanted me to go with the mortgage that would cost me about $180 more. I was just uncomfortable going a little higher especially if they raise their condo fees that is something I cannot control. Sunday I will be going back out househunting. I think I’m going to go with the house now I’ve decided against the condo for a few reasons. The first reason is privacy I’m not sharing a wall with anyone in the house if that makes sense also the money I could pay somebody to mow my yard the condo association is taking. I’ve gone back-and-forth on this issue several times but I think this is the correct choice. I think things happen for a reason so it sucks to be in my house packed up already but at the same time I’m just not comfortable with what they were wanting.

Fourth of July weekend

This weekend has been great! Let me start on Thursday which was actually 3 July. I went on a date with this girl named Marissa. We met at Applebee’s and then watched a movie it went really well! She has a German Shepherd seeing-eye dog as well and besides one small altercation they get along well now. Reflecting on our first time together I remember trying to tell her things that I thought would be useful but then I kind of realized maybe I was saying them because she can’t see which is dumb because it’s what I hate. Lol I told her if I get annoying just tell me and I’ll stop I kind of realized what I was doing so the next two days we hung out I don’t think I did that. I have to say I’ve never been around someone that I can just be myself say what I want and not worry about necessarily being judged for what I say I really am starting to enjoy that aspect of our relationship. I will touch on something else in the next story.

For the Fourth of July we went to her uncle’s lake house and it was a great day. I went tubing which I had not been since I was probably 14 or 15. I realized I am no longer young. I’m pretty sore still. At the lake I use a lot of sunscreen because I’m pretty white and I burn easily. She kept reminding me to use it which I enjoy because for me that was a sign of her caring. Sometimes being blind means when going to a event you can kind of be out casted or at least I’ve felt at times a little bit on the outside. Hangingout with her on Friday I never felt that which was nice. I remember we were about to go tubing and she said we can hold hands it won’t be that bad but then once he started going fast she said okay I think we have to hold on now which is pretty accurate it got a little bumpy her dad said we got up to about 22 miles an hour and when we would bounce it would hurt. It was definitely fun though I just need to get in shape. I’m realizing I’m not as much of a daredevil as I used to be. I was a little nervous I must admit during that ride. Don’t get me wrong I still had a lot of fun but I noticed that I bit more cautious than I used to be. I’m still struggling a little bit to exactly say or figure out what I want to share about our relationship because it’s something that should be between us so sorry if I’m not being a very good wordsmith. I know that I enjoy the day because I didn’t feel any pressure and I felt so comfortable because she was there and just being around someone who understands that. When I got out at my place honestly felt like I didn’t want the day to be over and that I didn’t want to lose her. I had a pretty long string of bad things happening with women and I can honestly say I should probably pay attention to the feelings because everything just fits with her.

Saturday we went to a barbecue at my friend Jerry’s house. I invited Marissa because I wanted her to meet some people that have been very kind to me since moving to Louisville. After that we went back to her place and we decided to start a relationship. I’m really excited about that because she takes me for who I am I’m not saying she won’t want to change some things about me because I’m sure she will but it’s special when you find someone that feels right. She has strengths that are some of my weaknesses and vice versa. As we go forward and build I’m excited to learn about her and just grow closer. I guess one thing for me is because I can’t see someone and make eye contact I really enjoy things like handholding because that allows me to still have contact if that makes sense. It’s just little things like that that she understands maybe it’s because were both blind or maybe not I just know that I’m really happy. I’m not having a great writing day so sorry I will deathly post more as time goes on but as far as our relationship I think that’s all I want to say to the public. And to finish off my thought on Robin I think she is pretty excited to have a sister it’s kind of interesting when someone would knock on the door they started barking in unison.

Struggles with mortgage

With this buying a condo adventure I’ve gone through a lot of ups and downs which I hear is pretty normal. My friend Jerry told me that he’s never had a property he’s bought that he didn’t doubt for a second. I probably would feel better if I could read everything that I’ve signed but unfortunately due to technology I still can’t. Ultimately I just keep hoping that I didn’t do something dumb but my anxiety is through the roof. I have gone back-and-forth on my decision a thousand times as the time gets nearer to sign the mortgage I get even more nervous. Last night my anxiety hit a pretty high I think I’m okay now. It’s just such a huge investment I’ve put so much thought into it everything in life is a gamble and I feel I’m making the ultimate one. It’s funny I do worry about the blind unemployment rate because what if I lose my job yes that can happen to anyone but I can’t go work at a 7-Eleven as easily as you can. I still feel I’m making the best choice but I’m just really nervous.

My apartment is pretty much packed up a eating off Styrofoam plates and plastic cups which is a lot of fun. Last weekend my parents sister my niece and nephew came down to help me pack. My niece is getting so old or maybe that’s me. I can’t believe she is six! She’s kind of understanding my blindness now. I was able to show her what brail look like and she thought that was pretty neat. She sat on my lap and I looked at her ears and asked where her earrings were? She said when I get big like you uncle Joe I can have earrings again. I really enjoy spending time with her it’s amazing how big they get quickly